You have the time and energy to maintain a public list of people you don't like on your homenode with a short essay for almost every one, a list of every time in recent history you have taken offense to how other people treat you, and multiple vague and rambling essays about something or other, and you still wonder why people don't know what to think of you or how to treat you?

May I respectfully suggest you consult a mental health professional neutral and trusted third party? At the risk of performing a long-distance psychological diagnosis, I cannot understand with your thoughts or motivations and believe you might do well to talk them over with someone neutral in person.

Update: rephrased to remove potentially loaded terms.