firewall00: 

when it comming to writing my own code to perfome specific task i cannot and i feel my self fear of writting the code seems to be very confused huh

You should accept that (as expected).

_{Modification (this passage did upset some of the german monks, so I take it out - sorry for causing any inconvenience):}
It's like the young Waffen-SS soldier(*) (speaking from german perspective) got through the courses how to handle his MG-42 and how inferior the Russians should be viewed and all that.

It's like the young USMC soldier in the pacific theater of operations (PTO) got through the courses how to handle his .50 Browning gun and how inferior the Japs should be seen and all that.

But then, the first time he is "really there", on his battlefield outpost, the power of a battle-hardened Japanese Infantry division, supported by artillery descents upon him.

Will he run away? Maybe. Some of his comrades did after seeing this the first time. This is a quite normal reaction. But there is another solution. He looks accurately how and what his older, keen and more experienced buddies do in this situation.

So he trusts them and concentrates on the tasks he already know.
^{(Unfortunately, thats the last thing we heard from him.)}

What I tried to say is: in solving an arbitrary request to do something profane with the *tool* you started to master, you show who you are. One real recipe for you would then be: Think about "real world problems" of other people, like e.g. posted here on PerlMonks, try to solve them as you can and compare your solutions with the code provided by the saints here (and learn from that).

Do that every day - at least for one hour. After one year, you will stay calm confronted with almost every task in this field.

Regards

mwa

_{* => sometimes I tend to draw outrageous   comparisons in order to make myself as clear as I can ...
(but if you are interested in this stuff, read ISBN 0691008531)}