IMHO you need mental peace.
just try to do some meditation, or focus on spirituality like
Advaita_Vedanta,
Ramana_Maharishi,
Ramesh_Balsekar.If I am in your position I will keep myself busy with all these stuff.
Vivek
-- 'I' am not the body, 'I' am the 'soul', which has no beginning or no end, no attachment or no aversion, nothing to attain or lose.