Maybe also you should ponder what "better" means to you. Consider your own thoughts carefully ... if you want to learn "from others," what prompts you to say that the people who are around you now are "hacks" ... and that you, yourself, are also a "hack?" If you want to become satisfied, first ponder introspectively what exactly it is that now makes you dissatisfied. If "exactly what you are looking for" were to walk up to you and smack you in the face, how, exactly would you recognize it for the godsend that it is? What, exactly is it that makes you step out in search of “change,” and how do you intend to identify it once you find it? Those are, actually, meant as very serious thought-questions...